Regrets of my life And i wish i could change them

Dear Diary

Some people were gifted with love as my mother and i will always love her and for my life I would do anything to make her happy i know i have been rude to her but now i realise that without her i will have nothing.

Some people would do anything to make me happy as my father he would help me and get me happiness he would pursuit for happiness even if he takes a year to get it he has done a lot for me he has bought me things brought me to school teach me scold me when i do something wrong and teaches me the right things but the most is he cares about me.

Some the love of my life Raudah but i couldn't possibly get her heart i mean look at me i am a 5 while she is a hard 10 and we can't skip more than 2 points which mean i will never be with her i loved since i saw how she is i have been wanting to be with her and that is why is joined the library club when i was primary 6 it was just to get closer to her and she taught me everything about being a librarian that was the happiest day of my life she was talking to me smiling and so close to me i could smell her beautiful perfume and i wasn't really intrested in joining the library club then i knew that she was in it but when time passes she stopped coming to the library and i was in sorrow.

Some my BestFriend Ahmad Mudzakkir starting from p4 we were always toghether he made me happy when Raudah Broke my heart Ahmad was my key to happiness in those times,he made me smile but Farhannah and Wani were jealous so they took him away from me when ever i was with Ahmad they were there they were angry but the only times me and Ahmad was toghether was during Library duty we were like peas and carrots well until middle school we went to our seperate ways all of us i regreted not having to be in the same school as Ahmad .I wish i could be reborned but still have my memories and i wish i could restart my life over if i could do that i swear by god i would do the right things what is Allah heard my prayers and answered them if i had just one wish i wouldn't wish for a million dollars or to be smart i wished i could be reborn and start my life over again i just wished that would happen is Allah would accept it i just wish i could start things over everybody deserves asecond chance and how about me Allah Maafkan saya kalau lah kamu akan kasi saya hati untuk hati help me reborn me show me a sign that you are listening i never seen a miracle happen i want that to happen give me a second chance i know you choose who gets the chances but please

21 June 2011

Dear Diary
I couldn't help noticing Raudah everytime I see her she would ignore me as if i wasn't there well life continue to go on as I get on with my life I see lots of changes in people in how they react and how they act like.

I also know that I ruined my second chance and there is only one chance left to prove that I am quite and that will be 4 maybe 3 years later when i reached polytechnic well continuing on since now is June holiday there will be of course a lots of homework.

And yes I have not done my homework yet but i did started it.There is only 5 days left before school starts and I still have 18 pages to do so if I plan correctly there is still chance but if by Friday I don't start doing them im dead not literally i was speaking memothaticly what I really meant was that I am gonna get into trouble all my homework is maths so Madam Fadzlin will punish me.

And i don't want that to happen now would I so my plan is to divide the homework so i can do a fair job everyday okay I have 18 pages of homework see and i must do it and finish them by Friday so that's 4 days.18 divide by 4 I will have to do 5 pages today and 4 for the rest of the days.

It is a No Lose Yes good so the problem for my homework is done.

I will post again when school reopen.

Your Dearly
Fiqri

The Day Today

Today is a normal day for me and the good thing is that i never even get scoldings from a single teacher today.I was just sitting at my place and doing my own work while Rozairi and all are talking and getting scolded by the teacher i was relaxing and watching the show i felt proud today.Now i know the feeling of those who are innocent.Enough with me i am going to be quiet at class from now on.

Today was the first D&T lesson and i thought D&T was a computer lesson but no D&T is about us learning how to make stuff and i really mean make stuff like the Key Chain but too bad because we are not going to have lessons next week as it is Mid-Year exams next week.

Speaking of the Mid-Year Exam i am pretty scared for my Maths And Science as i am still Blur with these two subjects.For science i have been sleeping during science period man i should not have slept in class and now i have to take the consequences of my action.Just now it was my science test and i only did 8 parts out of 40 which mean i will fail my science test as i am still blur like i said my plan is too catch up my science this saturday,sunday and monday and also for my maths as i am blur at Algebric Expressions okay i better buck up my maths and science by this week.

The Weight Off My Shoulders

For me it seems like everything is going on nicely first of all the MC thing is over cause my teacher never said anything to me about the mc in the past 3 days yeah i was really lucky for the start after monday i felt like all the weight on my shoulders suddenly dissapeared but not exactly all of them.
The only problem left is about my Mid-Year Examination which is off course next week on tuesday you see for my science i am quite blur with elements and compounds i don't even know what an element is cause i have been sleeping in science class man i should not have slept in class.
cause now i have a problem while the other students in my class are fine with it but the only people i know having lots of problem is Rozairi cause he has been reading the True Singapore Ghost Stories.It only means that he is not paying attention during class period...
The Second student is Arie he has been doing some other stupid stuff like drawing or talking.The other one i think is Bryan cause he has been drawing warfare on his paper and also talking.For me i better Buck Up as they say it or Pull My Socks Up yeah haha correct as i say it.

What Goes Around Comes Around

Have you ever heard an old saying 'what goes around comes around' well its true.It means that all actions have consequences yeah and i mean all.I found out about this phrase in history class telling about the Buddhism life.

At first i thought it was like a fake a rip off but now i believe it cause it is now happening to me k i came up with this post as i am in big trouble for not going to school.K here is the story.

One day (Meaning yesterday) we had a trip for band but not compulsory actually i didn't want to go but then Darren begged me to go with him so i did but i knew i was gonna regret it cause i have homework and we were going to go home at 10.30 .

But i did thinking that everything would be fine but it was not after the show we were dismissed at 10.30 i went home late and i didn't want to go to school the next day i told my father and he said "How many times do you want to skip school!" but i was really tired so i went to sleep still having my school PE on.

The next day i was shock that i haven't do my maths homework and I don't want to face Mdm Fadzlin and also i didn't want to cheat like Stupid ass Rozairi i hate him...

Continuing k i was shock and i was really in trouble i told my father i didn't do my homework then he said "Yeah Who's Fault is it I Don't care you still have to go to school" I was gonna answer him that it is band's fault but then he went away.I bathed slowly showing my attitude and also wasting time so that i don't have to go to school and get scolding early.

I went to the Dining room and i tried to do my hw and it seemed impossible to finish it cause it was quite a lot.By the time it was already 7.40 i thought to myself if i go to school i will now get to punishment one for being late and the other one is not doing hw so i thought of a plan to not get punishment and the only way is to not go to school.

But to do that i gotta get permission from my father first and he is gone so now there is no way of doing that the only way is to face the teachers but then i thought of an idea to skip school by not going and pretending that i am going so i went out of my house with my bags and clothes.My first idea was to go to macdonald and sleep till 2.20 but on the way i saw that the bubbletea shop was open and so i went there i guess there were 3 students sec 1 also doing the same thing as me but they left at 10.They went to lan i slept at the bubbletea shop till 10 too and went to lan using my pocket money.

I had six dollar meaning i can play only for 3 hours which also means that i will have nothing to do at 1.oo to 2.20 so i called nicholes after playing lan i was starving i called nicholes and he also did not go to school he invited me to his home and so i did he wanted to go lan again i said i have no money and he said that he will treat me six dollar so i agreed.But we played for only an hour cause we were bored nicholes wanted to go to my house so i agreed we walked there.

While Playing i had a miss call i looked at the miss call and i did not know who that number was so i called back and i found out it was my teacher miss LIZA i was shocked (twice today).

She asked me why i did not come to school and she wants me to get an mc or letter.Thats why i am in trouble cause my parents don't know that i did not go to school and also my father stricly said that i have to go to school now this is the problem see what i mean by what goes around comes around.............................

Super Heavy Rain

Today It rained but it did not just rain normally as you can see by the title i wrote that it was a Super Heavy Rainand it really was.K let me tell you the whole story.

One day it was fine and was as per normal but today was special as it was our
F and N Exam and i was cooking Spagghetti Bolognese i wasn't really prepared for it as we all did not cook it before now that was just not fair as other classes did .

Im just gonna skip the story till after school as it is quite long and now is 9.40 i gotta sleep soon so to make the story short.Okay the last period is History and we were realeased directly 2.20 as Mr Danial was quite nice well between the people reading this i like Mr Danial the best.

Okay after we recieve the recipe for Spagghetti Bolognese well it seemed quite easy but it was not.I accidently overcooked the onions and they were BLACK!!
okay now to carry on we were to finish everything by 4.00 then it started to rain heavily and i was like What The Hell !

I can't go home unless my father comes with the car cause it was raining with a thunderstorm its not even safe if you have an umbrella cause the rain will break your umbrella well the wind and rain is too strong.
Well at first i walk to the Bus Stop but i needed to cross the road and there is no shelter on the way so i ran across the road like a mouse.

Well i will continue the story tomorrow now its time for me to sleep good night

Times now

Well today at school well as per normal and sorry for not posting much posts in this blog no more cause i have been been busy i mean seriously busy.

As you can see i stopped posting things after the sec school starts and it was very tiring for me and ohh yeah i didn't get to join Boys Brigade

I dunno why but at least i am happy in Band thats right now i am in band and Infocomn

actually my plan for secondary school was to join Boys Brigade and Infocomn

But i wasn't accepted by BB i think its because i am malay is it?

Well they have reasons for not letting me join.

Okay i talk alot but now its time to say what i wanted to say.Okay for today its nothin except that i did not go to Infocomn because it is very boring for me to go to the polytecnic.

Well i am thinking of quiting Infocomn and joining OPC well seems like fun ohh i could have only one CCA.

HUYYAHHHH!_))

K done talking about this But if i join OPC and quit Infocomn i would have to manage alot of my timing.

Still i kind of not interested in Infocomn but OPC is alot more tiring than Infocomn.

K now there is a second problem

Now rozairi is getting worse as he is making me much angry plus he is the devil of the class.I HATE HIM!!!

I can't take it anymore please if the teacher is reading this please do something about this cause i seriously hate him oneday it would start a physical fight and i don't want that to happen cause when that happen i would get into lots of trouble sia its like he can use almost everything against me like my 2.4 timing or my marks k now i am getting sleepy so bye see you all tomorrow BYE..........